Bones.

May 18

“I’ve used hammers made out of wood
I have played games with pieces and rules
I undeciphered tricks at the bar
But now you’re gone, I haven’t figured out why
I’ve come up with riddles and jokes about war
I’ve figured out numbers and what they’re for
I’ve understood feelings and I’ve understood words
But how could you be taken away?
And wherever you’ve gone
And wherever we might go
It don’t seem fair…today just disappeared
Your light’s reflected now, reflected from afar
We were but stones, your light made us stars” Light Years ~ Pearl Jam

May 13

Something about your life makes you want to be successful. Something about my life makes me want to quit.

Why am I so wrong?

Apr 21

You’re the man now dog

Apr 20

Forever( )

Why did we go to the hospitals?

Why did we hate our lives?

We had each other, and that’s all I could have ever asked for.

I miss you so deeply it hurts.

One must know sorrow to know happiness; but if loneliness is is sorrow and happiness is her then why couldn’t loneliness have happened first?

I fear she will never come back.

I don’t want to know happiness, I want happiness.

I want it back.

I want her back.

(++)

Apr 11

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Apr 7

You know who you are. (But not really)

I don’t know love anymore, as much I’d like to think I did.

I don’t know of tomorrow, much like I don’t know yesterday.

But I know myself, I know my morals. I know who I am and what I stand for.

I wouldn’t sell myself out for a solution to any or all of the above things. Weak-willed as I appear I stand absolute in myself.

This alone makes me greater than any superficial success you own.

That is all you are, superficial and too damned blind to see it.

You sleep with your sins by blinding yourself with fantasy. You live in a dream world, where everything happens perfectly; and if it does not it holds no worth to you. Imperfections to you are failures.

As harsh as this news is to your ear, if imperfections were failures you would be deemed the largest failure I have ever seen in my life.

However, this is not true. You are not a failure, but the negative aspects of your character far outweigh the positive.

You are a liar and a cheat, a whore. You are superficial. You put no effort into your romance. You lack the ability to overcome what makes you uncomfortable. You are easily misled, put off, and confused. It will take lifetimes of sorrow for you to understand happiness. You are weak.

And to me, you are insignificant.

To me, you are worthless.

To me, you are hated.

I may not know tomorrow.

I may have no abundance of friends.

You may have perverted my paradigm of love.

But at least I have myself, and can be proud to say so.

Apr 6

I hope he rips out your heart and crushes you

You cheating whore, you’d deserve it.

Apr 3

That’s a joke.

Apr 2

“A wicked spell cast over me
Addicted to her utterly
Despite the horrors that gestate
Beneath the beautiful” Cradle of Filth

“

No more I’m taking this hatred from you
You make me feel dead when I’m talking to you
You’ll take me for granted when I’m not around
So burn all your bridges ‘cause I’m not going down

This time I will be heard, I’m not gonna burn
It’s funny how the table, how the table turns
You fake condemnation, you pray for salvation
‘Cause your heart is made of stone, you can die and rot alone

I hope you’re unhappy and hurting inside
I want you to choke when you swallow your pride
Lay in your coffin and sleep with your sins
Give me the nails and I’ll hammer them in right now

” Alone - BFMV